Ramadhan dah pun habis.
Its not that aku solat terawih penuh pun..ada gak pontengss huhu :( So last year was better in that case. Though so, overall the 'heart' tu feels more involved this year Alhamdulillah. Means last year solat pun hati kosong. Ramadhan pun kosong je. Lebih excited bila nak raya tuu.
Nevertheless, no doubt perkara yang boleh kira best dapat experience masa ramadhan is that moment we stand in solat, just listening to the ayats recited by the imam. Really beautiful. And we dont get it any other time yknow. We dont stand that long in solat, we dont pray that much except in ramadhan.
I memorized like haha two small surahs only during this whole month. Surah Jumuah and Surah Munafiqun. The 2nd ayat of Surah Jumuah tells about how Allah sent us a messenger to RECITE His Ayaats upon us, to CLEANSE/PURIFY our hearts. So that is what we hope on when hearing the imam in our qiyam in solat. Even though you dont understand it. Thats another thing, i feel so lucky alhamdulillah that my parents sent me to a sekolah agama, know some basic arabic words. And since the quran has a lot of repetitions, its easy to understand some parts kan! The moment you recognized the ayat recited by the imam, perhaps you had listened to Nouman's explanation on, it easily overtook you.
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Q: "How can you feel calm at the recitation of Quran when you dont even understand it?"
A: "How is a baby comforted by her mother's voice?" -Dr Jeffrey Lang
SubhanAllah!
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Besides hoping on the majestic purifying action of the ayaats of Quran, for myself the feelings you should have when listening is that you take each ayat as it is, that is--Allah is speaking to you, REMINDING YOU PERSONALLY.
Each time the -- يا ايها الذين امنوا -- etc ring the eardrum of our ears, it should alert us.
Each time the story of the past nations are mentioned, we apply a FEARING heart.
Each time Allah promises the good life for believers in Jannah, we ignite the HOPING WORRYING heart.
Each time Allah prohibits us from something, if we've ever done it, we apply the REMORSE heart. If we havent done it, we seek REFUGE to Allah from ever committing such.
Each time Allah commands us of something, we turn on a DETERMINED WILLING heart.
Each time Allah says something like "So FEW people who are grateful/believe/fearing", we feel SAD, Almighty Merciful Allah does not deserve this from us!
When He Glorifies Himself in beginning and ending of surahs, we BELITTLE ourselves, Ya Allah we never glorify You as how You deserve to be glorified.
And all of this is just REMEMBERING ALLAH. Reminding us who we are, and where we'll return, and how nothing of everything that matters to us now, is ever so worthy then.
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And on top of that, there's a hadith saying Allah LOVES a solat done, with a LONGG QIYAM (stand longer). Yup. We are grateful to Allah that we are given that opportunity in Ramadhan and we hope Allah will have redha upon us.
Orang mcm kita tak hafal Quran, mana ada solat standing lama, surah pun hafal sikit. Huu. Surah pun tak baca selalunya! Kalau buat seorang pun, tak berapa semangat seperti Ramadhan and i dont know why, i like it better, in jemaah where im listening rather than i myself recite =.= hope its not a bad thing!
Ya Allah. Would be so wonderful if i can have that moment someday, as everyday, before subuh in a long standing solat, even if its 2 rakaat, jemaah with my husband, who memorize a lot of quran himself (sebab lelaki kene solat di masjid kan. Bila lagi nak jemaah dengan isteri kalau tak masa solat sunat, betul tak? Hehe).
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Tapi yelah selalunya, aku ni malas, mendatangi solat pun dalam keadaan nak habis cepat.
NAK ada cakap, kita belajar apa2 pun dalam bab ilmu agama terutama quran (tafseer, tajweed, bahasa arab dll), adalah sebab kita nak perbaiki solat kita. Bukan sebab lain, tapi hanya kerana nak PERBAIKI SOLAT. Tujuan utama hidup kita kan, sembah Allah mengabdikan diri kepadaNya. So kalau selama ni kita dengar lectures, baca quran, belajar quran, hafal quran tapi usaha itu tak menyumbang kepada solat yang lebih baik, TAKDE POINT. RUGI. TAK CAPAI MATLAMAT. Confused matlamat mungkin.
Lepas tu NAK tegur how kita solat hanya baca surah pendek JEE..??
Wow! Hebatnya dia. Hardcore punya teguran. Menggesa pada perubahan besar....dan berat..the whole mindset, attitude, heart, iman itself--towards Allah ! I mean like aku baca Fatihah je koot? :/
