A Teacher and Student.

I once heard Nouman Ali Khan explaining, the feeling khushoo', he was picturing a situation, a preschool teacher in front teaching one whole quiet class. Then there are two students at the back talking and giggling to each other, secretly. Teacher caught them and yelled out their names. The two students go like terkejut, terus tunduk, instant takut and malu, suddenly all alert.

Now THAT, for a little while what they are feeling there, is khusyoo'.

The students acknowledge their wrongs and are feeling bad for doing it and getting caught, they acknowledge the superiority of the teacher over them.

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To talk about teacher and student relationship and relating it with the Lord and the slave...

A teacher would of course has love and care for her students. When a kid is running around the school field and he fell and injured himself, while he is under her supervision, course she would worry. If he's been missing class for a week she'd call up his parents to ask about him. She cares, she loves, she bares this sense of responsibility towards him.

But is it with that love she has for him, that when he doesnt get his homework done, shes not gonna piss off and not give a little yank? With that care for him is she gonna give him free A's and let him pass exams easily?

And the most important thing, most solid thing for a teacher, no teacher would at all want her students to fail. If there's any of a teacher's biggest, most unselfish wish for any other being aside from her, is to see her students attain success. The pride and glory she felt looking at her former long gone student, now a full grown successfull man, great career etc, coming around visiting his late school and just briefly thanking her.

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Allah He cares for us. SO MUCH. His most awesome most perfect creation is the creation of humans. The arabic word He uses to describe 'creating' us is different than what He uses to describe 'creating' earth and heavens and other things. Really, look it up, study bro Nouman's tafseer. He takes utmost PRIDE in creating us, moulding our structure, giving us life. From when we are a drop of liquid to such a complex organism occupying His land.

Why would Allah want to ever shower you with his blessings and forgiveness? Not because of the countless honorable deeds you may have been doing your whole life (if you've done such), not even because you asked for it, He still give you, more and even more, because again, you are His. You are His slave and He is Your master.

Imagine a tired mom not sleeping at nights, comforting her crying baby, attending to her needs, not even having the feeling to whine or complain about it. Because thats HER baby there, HER daughter, HER own flesh and blood, that came out of HER. and she is HERS.

And WE ARE HIS. Most of us forget, are oblivious to the reality of this supreme feeling, if theres anything to be grateful of, is that HE IS OURS. Rabbi, MY Rabb. Rabbuna, OUR Rabb.

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He created the heavens and he takes pride in honoring you with the blessings and happiness from Him.

He created hellfire and He would almost hate to see His slaves having to be punished and suffer there.

He showed you the way to good,  and to worst. Created Hell not that he wants you to there. Created heavens not that you are entitled to attain it so easily.

And all of this, this system, this principle, is only for your own good.

Its all up to you, and the choices you make. The last thing a lazy student can do is putting the blame on his teacher.

Semoga kita dapat mencari kestabilan dan ketenangan di antara HARAP dan TAKUT kepada Allah, Tuhan KITA.

Semoga kita dapat menghayati dan mengagungkan, nilai dan kedudukan Allah dalam diri kita, cinta dan syukur kita padanya. Lebih dari ibu bapa kita dan orang lain.

To love at any circumstances

There are lots of circumstances for everyone where you come to sorta hate or dislike another person, be surprisingly irritated or annoyed by another, either for them being just  themselves or for the faults that they had actually committed to you or others.

Either its an ex that cheated and treated you with no ounce of appreciation towards your years of life with him, a housemate not knowing how to settle their own dishes, roommates that lack respect of your rights and privacy, your irresponsible group mate thats always a no-show leaving you with tons plus another ton of crap to settle, the other girl that looked too pretty and too loved, or just that hye bye friend whom her ways are so different than yours thats harder to get along and whats left between you two is only judgements.

Have you ever wonder, what if, in reference to the much of dislike you have towards them, Allah on the other hand, loves them, EVEN MORE than He loves you. How kita tgk dia sebelah mata je, but Allah values them and their ranks are positioned higher closeat to Him.

Kita boleh fikir je org tu jahat ye, kureengg sikit, tp macam mana kalau kita fikir, dia BELUM jadi baik. Baiknya who knows even better than we may ever be. Mungkin Allah sedang uji dia dgn kekurangan dia tu. Yg mana Allah tak uji kita dari segi tu. Dan mungkin sangat Allah sedang menguji KITA, bagaimana kita menghadapi orang2 yg kurang/tak baik dia mata kita ni.

Ada kakak kata, theres a hadis, somewhat sounding like dont judge orang yg buat dosa di siang hari sbb mungkin dia bertaubat pada Allah dan menyesali kesalahan n kekurangannya di malam hari.

Another one on a person one day, brought up front to Allah and his endless good deeds are mentioned, the angels are ready to escort him to Jannah. But Allah says..NO, his place is in hell. Because in his single deeds there is no IKHLAS. And that is the matter only Allah knows, yang Maha Mengetahui, Maha Adil, semua kuasa di TanganNya.

Imagine that person that looks so evil, but who knows he makes taubat everyday to Allah crying. His good deeds are so little and so small, but his heart to it, verily he did it only for Allah.

Compared to us yang keletak keletuk solat tak pernah miss, tp hati tak pernah hadir.

A friend cerita, jgn kau hina orang yg dah berzina dan terlalu byknya dosanya apabila sungguh2 dia menyesal nak taubat pada Allah. Kedudukannya lebih tinggi dari orang yg selalu solat tapi sekali tu tertinggal solat subuh, tp hati takde rasa penyesalan etc.

Ter pernah alami this except kat egypt ni. Where i got to know of someone, whose not really that fond of me. Talks about me behind my back and to other friends. Shes Just easily 'annoyed' by me, my presence. which is weird -.- and useless.

yang paling sedihnya, ever since i knew that, i found myself treating her differently also. hmmm. which is a no no good.

One thing about loving those who love you, and also loving even if he on the other hand, hates you.

One thing to forgive out of love when people accidently hurt you, and to forgive also even though he did it on purpose.

Once there was this man who really hated this other guy, caught saying "Man i'd kill him given the chance". One day, the first guy died. And the good second guy went to this hating dead guy's family and tells them, "Now that you lost the head of your home, whatever you need, i am here for you, please come to me for things you used to come for to your dad."

The people are asking "You should be happy now he is gone, why are you doing this, that guy is hateful towards you." and he replies, "How can anyone be happy towards the death of a believer ? Whatever's between me and their late dad is only between us."

Bottom line, live life with Nabi saw's standards, higher in mercy and compassion and humility. My advice to myself, jangan la benci sesape, tak suka sesape, malu pd Allah dgn kedudukan kita sebenarnya ni. Uhu uhu.