A Fridge Frenzy

A Fridge Frenzy? Frenzy, in english means a state of great excitement, or fear. while a fridge is...a fridge. its filled with a variety of stuff. bitter sweet chocolate, sour mayonnaise, salty ikan kering (which my dad usually brings whenever he went outstationto sarawak), sweet oranges, the stinkin' meat, even some nasty yellow patches (which indicates the decades of hardly-ever-scrubbed fridge). But never to forget the coolness it emits all throughout, maintaining all of its inside fresh. so in short, a fridge resembles my life. the great excitement, sometimes fear, and all sorts of feelings from the simplest to the compicated-est i've experienced while encountering life.


I loved to write diaries. for now i figured i have 4,5 of notebooks honoured to be resembled as a diary of mine. i tell everything. people dont understand then aint no problem for me, cuz my diary does. he takes me all the same similar i intended to give, and i am somebody. i have my own reasons. i know myself. or perhaps at least i am trying to.


Until 1 day, at that point of time, i had somehow lost myself in a way, i feel almost all the time, that i just dont know. i was just shooting all the bullets out with no aim. just wasting my time, following my heart, doing what i feel like doing, never thought of the consequences, thinking that doing this in some way wont effect that long and will die through time so i have nothing lo lose, giving myself excuses that this is the way i ought to enjoy my teen years. HAHAA. and to tell you the truth i still feel this same way. so i thought perhaps if i just stop for once, and think clearly in a sense that im actually able to write it out then perhaps i'll find myself again. be able to actually look inside me, able to answer the question, what am i doing? why am i doing this? the answers can actually map out who i am, who i wanna be. so i thought, YES I WILL NOW START WRITING AGAIN, ONLY THIS TIME TECHNOLOGY INTRODUCE ME TO WHAT THEY CALL, A BLOG.


so HELLO BLOG, :)