Random

Its 1 am in the morning. Tomorrow is a holiday. My housemates are loud in the kitchen. They're on a homemade shell out endeavour. Cool kan! Me? Im retiring on self pampering autonomosity to not do anything. Haha.

Its been a while since i posted things. I still write though. But they stay in my draft. I write when im stressed and confused. When im feeling a need to understand and express myself in words and let it off my chest. Relieving. Now that i think about it i always resort to that. Notes in my phone have little essays that i write whenever perasaaan tak puas hati datang. Boiling inside, yet when i finish addressing everything it felt like things are magically lifted and i no more bare the need to throw a fit or anything..

Ever since the issue regarding last post i can merrily cheer kudos to myself. Feel a lot better. At ease. Alhamdulillah. Don't feel like killing anyone as much. Literally yes.

So many things had happen. I wish i can record them all to not miss out a single moment to cherish later when we forget the little valuable details that make our life.

Im leaving egypt soon. I honestly felt sore at the thought of it..........i wish time won't move so fast. The thought of departing for good from this place..and the thought of a bolder vicious reality ahead of me..growing up in life..taking a step ahead in a new dimension....of work life. Not just any work, but, a doctor.

Im getting chills.

Not ready.

Doubting.

And i am not proud at my self progress in my study. Though it is a teeny weeny bit better than the worst of last years. Where im like a shadow in class and this year a little....brighter visible shadow? Does that make sense. How great...in my final year and still feels like a shadow.

By shadow i mean sometimes i exist and most of the times i dont. And whenever in those little times that i do, it seemed like i dont. Get me?

Kay tak yah la faham, anyhow, need to get working on my grilled veges and butter prawn. My autonomosity has expired 😅

I love my housemates, have i mentioned that? They knew and accept me in my worst. Im always a pain in the ass with my little complex.....

The plan today was interestingly, entirely spontaneous. Syahirah lapar at like 10 pm dia and Anna nak gi Carrefour. I keep saying yeah2 jom siap but dont seem like ever getting off my chair. Erk.. Me and zara down hard--malas... So they went themselves surprisingly come back at near 12am in the morning bawak udang setengah kilo and sotong sekilo and veges and all sorts.

Even more surprisingly dia kata "takpe biar kitorang masak harini!" Woah sounded like a miracle. They finally self claim to become in charge of something without me or zara's involvement...yeah!

In the end of course zara helped out, being her nature. And being her nature to include me in, i can't say no..

So that in the photo is our result. Impressive rather huh? Sedap sangat!!! All thanks to the mastermind adorable juniors in the houseeeee~~~

Bon apps!!